~Loneliness~

Hello again

Holidays make me away from my computer.

Having holiday will make my days full with movies, games, window shop and even my cousins, nieces and nephews.

Talking about all that make you guys thinks that I am not lonely.

But suddenly this loneliness feeling come attack me like from noways...

These few days keep me thinking that what have happen to my life?

That feeling keep attacking me.

The problem is I don't even know how to tell people.

people around already get used to the happy me smiling me.

What can I do now??

To whom should I be confess?

  

Nobody knows my problems

The bigger problem is no one care what my problems are.

Kill me...

~Virginity~

After a while, here I am again writing due to the boredom.

I wanted to talk about virginity

(Because it being like the hot topic in my university now)

Back to YEARS ago, virginity is something that is VERY IMPORTANT for the typical Asian Girl

And now as the time passes, for some reason virginity doesn't seem like the real deal anymore

But still there are some who opposing the idea of having sex before marriage

For me, I doesn't care much

If you are willingly accept either way of the life style I will still respect you

As long as you didn't bring any trouble to other people

But to girls out there

If you wanted lose your virginity for the first time (I mean before marriage)

I suggest you to think not only twice but hundred or thousand time

Because there are no turning back

(Even thought they said there are surgery that can build back your hymen,

but I don't know how true is that)

Once you step into that line, that's it

It's your new life

To guys out there

(I mean the one wanted sex before marriage)

Please make the desire of having sex is mutual between the two of you

Please don't force or 'blackmail' her into doing it

You need to make it pleasant for both of you

And guys

Please think about this

If you want your future wife to be a virgin

And do think you might as well want kept your girl virgin now

If every guys think that they wanted a virgin as their wife yet screwing all their girl

How are you suppose to find the little virgin wife

Right???

Unless you can accept your future wife as they are

Then, what can I say more

Anyway;

For the new couple that wanted to it out for the first time,

here is some link that maybe can help your first experience

(Figure out if you are not ready and how to tell your partner)

http://www.wikihow.com/Know-when-Someone-Is-Not-Ready-to-Have-Sex

http://www.wikihow.com/Tell-Someone-You-Are-Not-Ready-to-Have-Sex

(If you are ready, then...)

http://www.wikihow.com/Know-if-You-Are-Ready-to-Have-Sex

http://www.wikihow.com/Lose-Your-Virginity-Without-Pain-(Girls)

http://www.wikihow.com/Have-Safer-Sex

http://www.wikihow.com/Have-a-Healthy-Sex-Life-%28Teens%29

And for those who decided to keep their virginity until marriage, well done

And keep it up till the end 

~Learn Bidayuh Bau Jagoi (Colour)~

Now we will learn about some colours.

Red - Bilieah

Dark red - Bilieah pogiah

Yellow - Siia'

Too yellow - Siia' pogah

Green - Bilu

Blue - Bilu kodu

Black - Songot

Too black (refer to extreme dark skin colour) - Songot poto'

White - Moopuu'

Too white (refer to extreme white fair skin colour) - Moopuu' Suuwi'

And the other colours that are available, we just says it as the english word.

I don't know why.

But maybe that are the only colours that my ancestor know once upon the time...

^^

(See the bottom part's word all in English.

My ancestor only know the colour after British come...Hehehehe...)

~Learn Bidayuh Bau Jagoi~

This blogspot is about some words that is use in Bidayuh Bau Jagoi daily conversation

I              - oku' / ku' (the ( ' ) work as k)

You         - muu / mu'

He/she     - iyoh / yoh

we           - oto' / to'

us            - koih

you guys  - ingan

they         - nyaa muno' 

Some of the simple conversation:

How are you?

Oni abar mu'? / Oni abar muu?

How is he/she?

Oni abar yoh?

Good. And you?

Paguh. Muu neh?

He/she is fine.

Iyoh paguh leh.

Where you want to go?

Kaki muu ya' odi?

I want to go buy some thing.

Oku' yak odi milih balang.

Let's go to eat and drink.

Jak odi man duoh nuo'. ('duoh' can be two or and)

What do u eat?

Oni man mu'?

What do u drink?

Oni nuo' mu'?

What's time is now?

Pukul kudu adin?

What time we meet?

Pukul kudu oto' bidapod?

We meet at two.

Oto' bidapod pukul duoh.

Let's go out.

Jaa' luah.

Where is John? He is playing outside.

Kaki so' John? Yoh patie' de' sopak.

John play video game.

John main video game.

~Learn Bidayuh Bau Jagoi (Number)~

I have friend that requested me to write a blogpost about learning Bidayuh Bau Jagoi language

since she is dating a Bidayuh Bau guy.

So this is my blogpost to learn some easy Bidayuh Bau Jagoi language.

I think I would like to start from number;

0 - kosoong

1 - ni'

2 - duoh

3 - taruuh

4 - pat

5 - limoh

6 - nuu'om

7 - tu'

8 - moyih

9 - pili'e

10 - smo'ong

11 - smo'ong ni'

12 - smo'ong duoh

...

19 - smo'ong pili'e

20 - duoh puluk

21 - duoh puluk ni'

...

29 - duoh puluk pili'e

30 - taruh puluk

...

100 - slatus

101 - slatus ni'

....

1,000 - slibu

...

10,000 - smo'ong libu

...

That all about numbers... ^^

~My Mother Language~

I am a mixed blood.

My dad is Chinese and my mom is Bidayuh (indigenous in Sarawak).

Although Bidayuh is a race in Sarawak but Bidayuh people speak different Bidayuh language.

The language is differ according to where we from.

My family, we are from Bau, Jagoi, so we speak Bidayuh Jagoi language.

There many other Bidayuh language, such as:

• Bidayuh Bau, Jagoi
• Bidayuh Bau, Krokong
• Bidayuh Bau, Singgai
• Bidayuh Bau, Gumbang
• Bidayuh Bau, Tringgus
• Bidayuh Serian ( There are also like Bidayuh Bau where there are many different language that they speak)
• Bidayuh Padawan ( There are also like Bidayuh Bau where there are many different language that they speak)
• ...

That are the one that I know, probably there are more that I don't know. 

Although I am from Bidayuh Bau Jagoi, I can also speak good Bidayuh Bau Singgai.

Some of the words are the same, some are not and the dialect is different.

I can also understand a little bit of Bidayuh Serian language since I have friends from there.

The words are totally different.

Bidayuh is a race with so many culture.

But after many of us receive Christian as our religious, 

some of the culture also slowly gone with our ancestor.

But I still can see some of them when I am at the very young age.

The celebration of Gawai Dayak.

Gawai Dayak is a ceremony where the villager praise the 'Paddy God' for the good harvest that they gain for that year.

The true ceremony involve some spiritual 'things'.

But now we can still watch the ceremony which is kind of 'play back' without the actual spiritual part.

(Actually I want to share some of the real ceremony image but I lost them...Huhuhu...)

This is the traditional cloth that women wear if they are involve in the ceremony.

The ceremony is actually kind of spooky.

(At least that was how I felt when I watch the ceremony when I was young)

But now I am kind of miss it, since it is my family, my race culture and the young generation probably won't see or know about it anymore.

There are actually many things about Bidayuh.

But this is all that I can remember now.

So later...

Actually I can speak good Mandarin too since my dad is Chinese.

And I also love Chinese culture. ^^

~Running Man~

It's being a long time since my last post...

keep 'busy-ing' with my assignments, projects and exams.

So I feel like I want to write something today about what I like to do when I am stress and bored.

I am just another typical Asian girl that like Korean variety show. ^^

I like watch this show whenever I am bored and stress.

This show can make me laugh no matter how bad my mood was.

The show's title is RUNNING MAN!!!

Today I want to do a profile for every Running Man member from my Point of View.

The arrangement will be from the member I <3 the most to the member I <3 the least.

(All that I write down here is according to my point of view)

1st Place

Name: Kim Jong Kook

Nick Name: The Commander, Sparta Kook, Jong Kookie, Tiger

What I <3 about him/her: Smart, Masculine, Determine, Strong

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: Bond with Haha, Almost a perfect Guy ^^, Have a detective 'sense'

Weakness: Girls

2nd Place

Name: Ha Dong Hong / Haha

Nick Name: Haroro

What I <3 about him/her: Funny

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: Bond with Jong Kook

Weakness: Pretty Lady, Fear of height

3rd Place

Name: Song Jihyo

Nick Name: Ace, Mong-Jihyo, Monday Girlfriend (With Gary), Song Siblings (with Joong Ki)

What I <3 about him/her: Determine

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: Fast, Monday Couple

Weakness: For me she don't have weaknesses

4th Place

Name: Kang Gary

Nick Name: Monday Boyfriend (with Jihyo)

What I <3 about him/her: True with his feeling toward the Monday Couple

(Although I know it's not true ^^)

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: Monday Couple, Strong

Weakness: Always bullied by others

5th Place

Name: Yoo Jae Suk

Nick Name: Grassphoer, Yooruce Willis, Yoo Hyuk, Nation's MC

What I <3 about him/her: Funny, Smart(know a lot)

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: Talk a lot, Know a lot

Weakness: Afraid of heigth

6th Place

Name: Song Joong Ki

Nick Name: Flower Joongki, Song Siblings (with Jihyo)

What I <3 about him/her: -

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: Have a lot of general knowledge, Body balancing, Handsome

Weakness: Not good a anything else

7th Place

Name: Lee Kwang Su

Nick Name: The framer, Kwangvatar, Giraffe

What I <3 about him/her: -

What I don't like about him/her: Like to betray others

Specialty: Frame other

Weakness: Too many

8th Place

Name: Ji Suk Jin

Nick Name: Big Nose Hyungnim

What I <3 about him/her: -

What I don't like about him/her: -

Specialty: (Not sure)

Weakness: Too Many

So this all from me about them... ^^

I apologies if I have made any mistake...