~Loneliness~

Hello again

Holidays make me away from my computer.

Having holiday will make my days full with movies, games, window shop and even my cousins, nieces and nephews.

Talking about all that make you guys thinks that I am not lonely.

But suddenly this loneliness feeling come attack me like from noways...

These few days keep me thinking that what have happen to my life?

That feeling keep attacking me.

The problem is I don't even know how to tell people.

people around already get used to the happy me smiling me.

What can I do now??

To whom should I be confess?

  

Nobody knows my problems

The bigger problem is no one care what my problems are.

Kill me...

~Virginity~

After a while, here I am again writing due to the boredom.

I wanted to talk about virginity

(Because it being like the hot topic in my university now)

Back to YEARS ago, virginity is something that is VERY IMPORTANT for the typical Asian Girl

And now as the time passes, for some reason virginity doesn't seem like the real deal anymore

But still there are some who opposing the idea of having sex before marriage

For me, I doesn't care much

If you are willingly accept either way of the life style I will still respect you

As long as you didn't bring any trouble to other people

But to girls out there

If you wanted lose your virginity for the first time (I mean before marriage)

I suggest you to think not only twice but hundred or thousand time

Because there are no turning back

(Even thought they said there are surgery that can build back your hymen,

but I don't know how true is that)

Once you step into that line, that's it

It's your new life

To guys out there

(I mean the one wanted sex before marriage)

Please make the desire of having sex is mutual between the two of you

Please don't force or 'blackmail' her into doing it

You need to make it pleasant for both of you

And guys

Please think about this

If you want your future wife to be a virgin

And do think you might as well want kept your girl virgin now

If every guys think that they wanted a virgin as their wife yet screwing all their girl

How are you suppose to find the little virgin wife

Right???

Unless you can accept your future wife as they are

Then, what can I say more

Anyway;

For the new couple that wanted to it out for the first time,

here is some link that maybe can help your first experience

(Figure out if you are not ready and how to tell your partner)

http://www.wikihow.com/Know-when-Someone-Is-Not-Ready-to-Have-Sex

http://www.wikihow.com/Tell-Someone-You-Are-Not-Ready-to-Have-Sex

(If you are ready, then...)

http://www.wikihow.com/Know-if-You-Are-Ready-to-Have-Sex

http://www.wikihow.com/Lose-Your-Virginity-Without-Pain-(Girls)

http://www.wikihow.com/Have-Safer-Sex

http://www.wikihow.com/Have-a-Healthy-Sex-Life-%28Teens%29

And for those who decided to keep their virginity until marriage, well done

And keep it up till the end 

~He~

picture from: http://makingmemories.typepad.com/makingmemories/gift_ideas/page/2/

What is between us???

What am I to you?

Friend?

Best friend?

Special friend?

Girl friend?

Lover?

Partner?

I can't get it...

But being around you make me feel calm...

Feel like I am running away from my school problem...

Feel like nothing else matter...

People say life is complicated...

I think I understand it more now...

My life is COMPLICATED...

The more I try to figure things out... The confusing I get...

I think we better just let it be...

You ask whether I like you...

I can't answer that because I can't guess how you feel...

For me, between us is not just like that...

You are more then that to me...

I just can't say it out...

Maybe silent is better then we try to know...

You play with words, minds, emotions and even expression...

So I really need to find the right words...

But normally I failed...

Hahahahaha....

I know there is a day when I can't talk to you anymore...

I can't laugh and smile with you...

I know the moment we share will only be the shared...

But before that time came...

Let just enjoy the moment we share now...

And remember it as the moment we ever shared before...

~How I felt~

I don't know how to continue this relation anymore...

It is hard for me to cope with everything that you had done...

I am hurt...But I still smile for the sake of life...

Do you know it is hurt???

Do you even care about how I felt???

I Am fucking tired of this kind of relationship...

Please make all this clear for me...

If you felt that this relation is nothing...

Tell me...

I will be okay with it...

I don't care what is your decision as long as you tell me what is it...

So that I can make my own way...

My own decision...

Can you be a little considerate???

I ask nothing more then you explanation...

I don't want silentness...

All you know is to blame me...

But I did nothing wrong to you...

Can we just stop now...

I am tired!!!

~I know who I am~

This is me...

I know that I am not that pretty...

But at least I am perfect...

I have a pair of eyes,ears...I have one nose and mouth...

A pair of hands and legs...Right...

Thanks be to God...^^

I want to shared something here...

Do you guys ever heard of Logic Thinking in Discrete Mathematics maybe...

It is something like:

1. Only Girl wear gown.

2. Amanda wear gown.

Conclusion: Amanda is a girl.

@

1. Fruit is good.

2. Apple is fruit.

Conclusion: Apple is good.

You guys know that right...

So what I wan to shared here is something that really can help you...

Try not to give up or felt sad...

Because you are actually more then what you think you are...

So let think about this...

There is exist that "Nobody is perfect" is proven to be true...

And we always say that "I am nobody"...

Premise 1: Nobody is perfect.

Premise 2: I am nobody.

Conclusion: I am perfect....

So we are actually perfect in our own way...

So don't be so stressful about some small-small thing that people said about you...

Just be yourself...(If there is really nothing that you done wrong...)

That it for today sharing...See you guys next time...^^

~Friends~

Nak crita skit pasal kawan...

Siapa yang tau apa tu kawan yang sebetul2nya???

Saya tak kata lar yang saya ni takde kawan...

Ada, sangat banyak...

Tapi I wonder lah kan...

Dalam banyak2 kawan saya suma tu,ader x yang tau sapa kawan mereka ni sebenarnya???

Rasa nya x banyak yang dapat jawab soalan saya ni...Or xder langsung...

Maybe lah diaorg akan jawab something yang diaorg nampak saya buat tiap2 ari...

Or how I look like...

Tapi friends, kalo saya just act like that bcs korg nak saya act like that then macam mana plak kes tu?

So actually xder org yang betul2 kenal siapa saya...

Kat alam semester yang ala baru sekarang ni...

Most of human lah, diaorg cuma akan be friend dgn org yang akan bring benefit kat diaorg jer...

Kalo kawan yang bawa Problem tue...Huh...NO WAY lah nak kawan dgn dia kan...

Benefit yang saya maksudkan termasuk lah Frame, Glamour, $$$, or maybe nak tarik perhatian si anu2 yang rapat dgn kawan tue kan...

Maybe tgh baca2 post nie ada yang cakap takder lah mana ada saya kawan sebab nak suma tue...

But believe me my dear...You are...And I admit...Me too...(i think)

Okey maybe reason dia tak lah teruk cam yang saya mention kat atas tadi...

ok maybe reason dia sebab kita xnak nanti kita xda teman nak jalan pi class sama2...

Kita takut lonely kat kolej coz xder kawan...

Tu pun reason yang bg benefit gak kan...

Nak crita pasal kawan nie...memang banyak kes...

Ada yang kawan makan kawan...

Ada yang putus kawan bab laki yang kita minat tu suka kat kawan kita plak...

huhuhuhu...macam2 kes...

Apa kata lepas ni...

Kita tgk balik kawan2 kita...Tanya kat diri kita,kita ikhlas tak kawan nie...

Don't judge kerana orang nak kawan ngan kita...

Tapi judge lah kerana kita nak kawan ngn orang...

Betulkan diri kita...^^

Peace No War...

*Pictures From Google*