~Meaw Meaw~

I really like cat so much...

The bigger the cat the better...

I like cat with nice fur...

I like...I like...

I want to share some pictures that I <3...

^-^V

Hei...Want to joing me here...-_-

Don't play-play with me...

I am sitting in the basket...Why?Why are they serving me with those pumpkin???

Feeling so Sleepy now...Huaaaa.....

I give this ball to you...Come...Play with me...Miawww....

Why are you looking at me like that???

Time to sleep now...Minasan oyasumi nasai...

I am hiding from that stupid rat...I hate the rat...

I know that I am adorable...hahahaha....

Don't have any energy to open my eyes now.....

~My Unstable Feeling~

I really can't deal with my feeling anymore...

feeling so unstable now...

I feel like this and at the next second it's just swing like that...

It's not only affect me,I know that...

It's affect people surround me...

But what can I do...

I can't really control how I feel now and later...

Knowing that I have this problem even making me stress thinking how am I going to stop all this...

I know that I not at the state where I am going to hurt myself...

But I am too afraid that I will reach that step without knowing that I am getting worst...

I want to tell someone...

But I don't who the person is...

It's not like I want to get that attention...

It's really hard to tell someone that don't understand my state...

For some of you out there think that what in my mind is nothing...

But it's really bothering me right now...

I want to stop those voices in my mind...

But the stronger the will,the louder the voices get into me...

Lot of people out there seeing that I am smiling...

But really,it's tiring to provide that smile...

I feel like I am a doll...

That is being control...by no one...

I can't control myself...

Just sometime can force myself to smile...

Hearing someone say you have a beautiful smile really make me happy...

But it's also making my heart to bleed at the same time...

This is all for today...

Writing really make me feel a bit better...

So please don't say that I do this for getting anyone attention...

Just to heal myself...

~Helping~

I feel really sad...

A friend told this to me today...

"Why you don't even try to help us?or you don't us to be happy?"

I feel like crying when I heard...

Only God know how hard I am trying to help them...

The thing they ask me to help is not an easy task...

Although I seem like a happy girl with a lot of friends,

but the fact is I only have "surface" friend...

I never have a friend that I really can talk 'heart to heart'...

I help them....but my friend can't help...

What can I do???

I feel really upset...I feel like hard stones are keep falling on me...

I am smiling...

but my heart...It's hurt...

I never though that he will say that...

Why no one want to understand me...

I am having enough burden with my study...

Being with you guys,hoping that I can be happy...

Huhuhuhu....