~Smile in tears~

*Picture from Google*

I hate you so much

You can just steal away the light that brighten my way

The way that lead me to the right path

I need nothing more from you

Just the shimmer light of hope

Hope for me to still believing in Love

Love???

It's hurt

It's make me cry

Cry so silently

Cry with no tear

The pain I felt inside

Is a gift

Gift from you

And I appreciated it with smile

Nothing that I can beg from you

I don't dare to ask more

Felt like you are not mine

You are just like some imagination that penetrate my mind

Anyone know???

How hard to hide the tear

How hard to be smile when your heart broken into fine pieces

How hard to act cool when your blood is flowing in your brain

Do anyone know HOW THAT FUCKING THING FEEL like???

You guys can judge me

Just judge me the way you like it

But don't feel that you are good

Cause you are the worst ever

U never try to understand me before you judge me

Do u ever felt like this???

I never ask this to happen to me

NEVER

But this is happening

Why I didn't stop???

I FUCKING CAN'T

I wish I can

But how

HOW

How

how

??

?